Tuesday, January 31, 2006

as expected, this new year didnt turn out very nice indeed. 8(.

but i did get to meet up with the peeps in sec sch n did some catching up on each other's life. kind of weird actually. with them, i really seen how much i have change.

i really detest growing up. yesterday i ask chester what is his impression of me. all he says is cheerful. n i wonder if he really did know n understand me. but maybe... the impression i gave everyone was just a very cheerful girl back then.

most of them barely change. which is to my surprise. coz me n vian had thought that everyone would change so much. the changes she sees in me, n the changes i see in her. n the similarities between us. i am so glad we got to update each other which kind of lighten my heavy heart.

i really dislike the changes. 8(.

n i thought that things had been better. n i finally thought of something good that happen last year. ya. everything is i thought. i hate it when i am leading a life which i keep having to fear what would happen next.

sometimes i really wish that the world just crash.