Tuesday, September 07, 2004

My Journey to School

My dad sent me to school almost everyday now. Everyday, he will first sent my mum to work and follow by me. All along, people who know me should know that I am not in talking terms with my Dad. We did not have any arguements, just that after a long period of silence between me and him, gradually, we only greet each other on every single day. And I really dread it...

The journey after my mum alights would usually be cold(the air con) and silent. He will concentrate on driving while I look out of the window at all the passing vehicles. At alot of occassion, I wanted to strike a conversation with him. However, I din. I dont have the courage to start though he is MY FATHER!

Today, after my mum and lil bro alight, from my house to my grandma house, to my mum's workplace, and finally to school. All along I really wanted to tell him my problems. I want him to be the first to know in the family, and hope to hear some advices from him. At every stop at the junction, my urge to talk grew stronger. However, I still din manage to say. 8(.

In the end, I consoled myself that my problem might be a rather big and upseting one for him to accept and react face-to-face. So I decided to SMS him for a start instead. The moment I alight, I type out the SMS and send it to him. He did not reply. I sent another one over and he finally replied. A reply of concerns and his thoughts. It sent me to another round of confusion. Yucks! I hate it! But, thanks PAPA, I love you. 8)

For those who are on talking terms with your dad, dont stop it! You would most probably regret it one day. And for those who are on bad terms with your dad, do give a thought of what they had provided for you. Resorting to violence might be their last option to make you be good. However, every family got their own rules and regulations, got their own ways to lead live and their own ways to discipline their kids. But no matter what, I believe they love us.

To a friend, I am sure he loves you, though the method he used is not appropriate and is bad, but he wouldnt do all that if he dont love you at all. He will just let you rot on the street and die. His harsh words and actions might just be some stuff he does in his fit of anger and he may not mean it. Anyway, it's not an advice or whatever(and I know I cant blurt out any good advice), just some of my thoughts. Think about it. 8)

Hmm, I guess I shall just blog whatever I want instead of blogging for the sake to retain readers coming back to my blog to read about my frequent updates. I shall do it MY WAY! The mono-whatever(read it at Ken's blog August Archive for the exact word) way. Kekeke! 8) Till then, smiles to everyone. 8)

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