Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Once again, I start to wonder. Should things be continue?I doubt my feelings. How long will it last this time?
I cant carry on and hecks other's comment. And the comments of people who matters most to me.
Somehow I feel forced. Not from anyone, just myself.
Sometimes I just feel that I am deeply "infatuated" with him. I can even pictured a future with him.
While at times I think he is not anyone important. That we can just stop all contacts and I wont feel a single thing.
With this kind of thinkings even right before we start, it really makes me wonder if my decision to continue on is right.
I think I treated someone even better than him. And the he treated me better than him I guess. 8/.
"nu ren xin, hai di zhen"
Shu thought hard on 4:44 pm.
