Sunday, June 26, 2005
Ireallyreallyhavelotstotellhim.
But,somehowIjustcouldntbringmyselftosaythosewords.
Iheardlotsofstuffs.Alotisdifferentfromwhathehadtellme.
But,Ialwaysmanagetocomeupwithinifinityexcusesforhis"lies".
Iseenopointinthemlyingtome.Yet,Ichosetotrusthim.
Ifeellikeanidiot.Feltlikeafool.Realisedmystupidity.
Hereallyisntthatbadboypeopleseefromtheoutside.
Heisjustrebellious.Veryrebellious.
Isowantmyfamilytolikehim.
YetIcantevenconvincemyselfthatheistheone,
whowillalwaysbetheretotakecareofme.
Waspicturinghowniceeverythingwouldbe.
Planningforthedays.Yeteverythingwasntasplanned.
Thingsjustcantbeforced.Itshouldntbelikethat.
It'slikeaheavenandhell.
Disappointment.Iwannacry.No.Idontwanttocry.
Iwanttolaughwithhimlikehowweuseto.Iamgoingcrazy.
Idontknowhowtofacehim.Idontknowwhatelsetosay...
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Shu thought hard on 4:21 pm.
